Wednesday, June 08, 2016


Hi again, reliable Internet companions!

I'm currently in Hong Kong and it's raining outside. My friends and I decided to seek comfort indoors @ Hotel Jen, where we're staying. They're fast asleep and I'm wide awake. While they're dozing, I've decided to draft up a little something here for you guys ;-)

If you don't already know, I have been writing on this space for quite some time. I love documenting fragments of my life. Through writing, I find that I am able to liberate a part of me I've yet to learn how to deal with. For those of you that have been reading my blog for a long time and have accompanied me through the highlights of my existence, from falling in love to experiencing heartbreak and back to believing in love again, thank you so much for being a part of my journey! Kudos!

As I browsed through my past posts, I found myself really enjoying the exhilarating and nostalgic feeling of being catapulted back to my transformative years. As such, I thought this would be as good a time as any to craft a post as reference for my future self and to update all of you on where I currently stand at this very age and in this very moment. To those new readers who might have little knowledge of me, this post might help you to get to know me a little more personally.

Who knows, we all might be more similar than we think.

1. November
I am 24 going on 25 this 2016. It's rumoured that November babies are conceived on/around Valentine's Day and this notion somehow makes me irrationally happy to know. Being an end-of-year baby has also made the following, slightly awkward conversation possible on so many occasions:
Person: So, how old are you?
Me: 24
Person: Oh, so you're a 1992 as well?
Me: No.... it's '91.
All that aside, when I was a teenager, I used to picture 25 as the age by which one gets their shit together - after all, as you finish the first quarter of your life, you probably have had enough experience to know what to do with with the remaining three.  My mom had me when she was 25. With that as a guide, I aspired to be happily married with a kid by 25 as well. Now that I am almost 25 in few months time, I can only say, "shit, no way, I'm definitely not ready to be a mom NOW". 

2. Only Child
..... and that is one of the many reasons why my friends are so important to me. My friends are my almost-family and literally my helpline when I am in need.

I think this thought only set in a few Chinese New Years ago. It was then that I realized my kids would not have many visitings to do due to my lack of siblings. It doesn't help that my cousins are mostly in Malaysia and that we've grown up apart over the years because of distance. This might also be one of the many reasons I'd like to have a big family. Then again, child birth seems scary so...

I have a love-hate relationship with the idea of me being reliant on my friends. While I applaud myself for being vulnerable in front of others, I don't like appearing weak. Thus, with the knowledge that everyone eventually leaves, I find it hard to truly open up to people. 

 Some people we just outgrow. Relationships might end with no real explanation as to why. And when that happens, respect the shift. Honor the growth and understand that not all roots can stay planted in the same soil forever.
— Alex Elle

If you've had friends that you loved dearly and for some reason or another had to part ways with, here's a quote thae you might relate to as well:

‘I still love the people I’ve loved, even if I cross the street to avoid them.
— Uma Thurman

It's already 237PM now and it seems like my friends might wake up anytime now. I should get going! I thought I'd be able to hit at least three points about myself, then again, baby steps yeah? Just like before, hitting "publish" still scares me till this very day.

Thanks for reading :-)


P.S. If you happen to be free and have time to read a little something, here's something that currently occupy me emotionally:


Right now, it's just mostly women supporting each other and feeling for each other. I long for the day men take an active role in such discussions.


  1. Hi There :-)) I love your small talks like this, it really provides insight. Thank you!! <3

  2. Oh I loved this!! I wonder if you are a Sagittarius cause I feel like we think alike. I'm also a November baby! ☺️ I do a lot of soul searching in my writing, it feels very therapeutic to try and understand my complex mind, writing manages to simply things. First time reading your post and I loved it, I hope you keep posting more personal stuff to document your life ❤️

  3. Hey, i am a big fan of yours . I love all your blog entries . You are one of the few bloggers that i 'catch up' with, as you are still so genuine once you are famous compared to the other bloggers. I am always excited to find out that you update your blog ! :) Love from Malaysia.

  4. Thank you for sharing the BuzzFeed link. It rendered me speechless, but I'm grateful that I read it. I'm a relatively new reader of yours, but I've been enjoying your posts. You're introspective, sentimental and reflective, and I see that through your writing. I often read what you've written and think to myself, I feel this way too. You don't have an About page, so sharing more about yourself in posts like these are interesting to read! Have a good day.

  5. Stopping by on your blog and in love with this post <3
    I'm just thinking the same way. I love to get married soon (now I'm going 23) and i'm not ready yet for marriage.
    I'm also the only child and I know what you feel. That's why I also believe friends of season. not all of my friends will stay through seasons in my life and i just need to accept it. people will come and go in life. Sometimes I really want to have siblings too lols.
    I think that's what all the only child think, we want to have big family LOL.

    great post!
    x, Ivana