MOVIE #17: YOU'RE NOT YOU

On this Sunday evening, if you're bored and wished to do something, I'd recommend this movie. I've just watched it and I love it. It's been a long time since a movie fed my soul.

MOVIE #16: PAINTED VEIL

Hello Internet friends,

How's your weekend so far? If you haven't made full use of it, get out there and live! Then again, if you're in the mood to just laze at home with a movie on (like me), here's one I enjoyed yesterday: The Painted Veil.

I haven't posted movie thoughts in a while and I know some of you guys love it. This movie had unexpectedly struck a chord in me and I really want to share it with you guys. My boyfriend introduced it to me just before he went for class and I watched it till the very end, without waiting for him... oops haha. He warned me though, "You might get emotional" and oh boy, I did. 

People might find it a little masochistic that I put myself through such movies and choose to bawl my eyes out, but I love the fact that movies can actually evoke such raw and real feelings out of me. It  never ceased to amaze me how moving images alone could make me feel so alive from stirring up my buried inner emotions. Having to see something so relatable on screen makes me feel... a lot less misunderstood by the world, like "Hey, someone else is going through this too," and suddenly, my problems don't seem so bad anymore. Yes, I often seek comfort in finding bits of myself in every movie I watch.

My boyfriend and I discussed infidelity openly to establish boundaries and lines we shouldn't cross, due to the severity of the consequences. I, for one, stand firm by no second chances, and as for he, "I would forgive if there's any love left." In comparison, I do look like a petty bitch next to his magnanimous soul. I often question his decision, "Why place your heart again in the hands of someone who broke it?"

And maybe this is why he introduced me to this movie without having to explain his answer. For those who're looking for a reason to take the leap of faith, maybe this movie might offer some sort of clarity. However, I'm glad to only have stumbled upon this today. Otherwise, today might turn out to be a very different today. 

People are unpredictable. 

People make mistake. People disappoint.

People get lost and find their way back.

But doesn't apply to everyone, does it?

MOVIE #15: BLUE IS THE WARMEST COLOR

Warning: Movie contains a lot of explicit scenes.

Not advisable if you're visually and mentally uncomfortable with such content.

Blue is The Warmest Color is so raw, organic, personal and fresh.

Some would see this as a crude lesbian sex film but if you've more depth, you'd see this beyond just that.

Not only I am a naturally curious being, I see myself as bi-curious too. And this movie sorta puts a lot of things into perspective for me. It is of course, very much possible to love a girl or any gender if you see humans as individuals instead of male and female. Though loving a man is entirely different, loving a woman goes on a totally different level. Not that I know but I believe they both offer different kind of experience, bond, security, emotional support and love. 

Surprisingly, I didn't cry. I'm usually quite a baby when it comes to movie like this. Many reviewed it to be triggering certain emotional wires but I didn't feel as much as I thought I would. I might just be almost emotionally crippled by now. 

It's comforting to learn through this movie that it's perfectly okay and possible to always have a weak spot for someone who you no longer see in that romantic way anymore. It's also alright to always have some sort of attachment towards someone in a neither platonic or romantic way. It's just an unexplainable state of neither here nor there.

I admire the character Emma. I had been there. I had loved someone with all. And like Emma, I was betrayed. At the same time, I could also relate to the character Adele. Being so madly in love for the very first time and terrified of being not good enough for the partner. The self-inflicting stress to match up and have your partner feel proud of you was never easy to eliminate. The more you loved, the bigger the fear became and that wasn't a good combination to begin with.

For those who've loved before, you'd understand: 

When you first loved, you were so eager. You were so eager to give though you had no idea how things might pan out, how to behave and how not to in the presence of another. You loved the other as if you were an avalanche. So intense, so overwhelming, so forthcoming, so messy. I think despite the fear, we should all love as if it's our very first. 

I will always love movie like this; reminding me I've once experienced and known love. Even if I can't feel it anymore, it was real and it happened not too long ago.

Love has no gender. Take whoever loves you.
Whatever makes you happy. Who cares? 
True love. Even if we have to die tomorrow, who cares?

MOVIE #12: CLOSER

This movie has been sitting on my computer in my "To Watch" folder for the longest time and finally, I watched it today. What was I thinking, taking so long to watch this movie?! It features the loveliest actors and actresses and somehow I just overlooked it. Just like any other good movies, it is totally underrated. The script was absolutely amazing; so raw and real. The movie simply showcases human's stupidity and naivety when it comes to love, in the rawest form without any drama complications or Hollywood style, hence totally relatable. What I love about the movie is that it explores a lot of issues I have been thinking about, though it didn't offer me answers (cause such answers don't exist), I am glad to gain another perspective. For those who've been through hard love, watch it and always remember you're not alone /hugs/

I did because they said it was the right thing to do,

and I thought so too.

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  I am so in love with the conversation they had in this scene

Daniel: I'm sorry

Alice: Irrelevant

Alice: Why didn't you tell me earlier?

Daniel: Cowardice

 

I honestly believe in what Alice thought, because I've thought about it as well but never did express. That there would always be this moment where we would sink into a momentary pause to weigh and make a decision on the spot; to do or not. And those who opt for a decision that would hurt their loved ones because of the lack in self-control and low will in resisting lust. Pure weakness, I simply can't respect.

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Why are we all so bitter this way?

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 This is a total mindfuck, not only in the movie but also, in real life scenario. I see this as a double-edged sword. Why so? Think about it. If you say yes, "I forgive you for making a fool out of me and please love me again", then you're probably still a fool for potentially putting yourself through second phase of misery. But if you say no, "I'm sorry I cannot bring myself to forgive you", then you'd be deemed as not being understanding and undeservingly of love for that. So what's what? Pfft.

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 Yes, she did Daniel. 

You're a fool for not being able to see.

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"I amuse you, but I bore you"

 “And on some small level, I think you owe me something for deceiving me so exquisitely.”

Mike Nichols, this movie is brilliant. 

And I can tell you love Julia Roberts a lot by using her repeatedly in your films.

Though I'm sorry for spoiling so many beautiful scenes, believe me, there's actually more than this.

MOVIE #11: BEFORE MIDNIGHT

 I've always loved this couple from their very first movie Before Sunrise followed by Before Sunset. Again, Before Midnight blew me away with the genuinity of the plot. I love how the movie is so raw and well-reflected on real life where viewers can all identity with at different stages of life. 

And yes, highly recommended by Irina

This scene shows the vast difference in our generation who believes in practicality than the older generation who believes in possibility of true love and everlasting companionship. And this scene tugged my heart strings definitely, it's so relatable and it's something I've been struggling, trying to figure out if the idea of marriage and love these days is what it is anymore? 

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 Maybe this is why many artists choose to stay in their own bubble and live in their own fantasy safe haven to survive this mad mad world with harsh reality.

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This. I can't even. 

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I hope I didn't spoil anything for you guys hahaha.

For screenshots of the previous sequels:

http://irinatyt.blogspot.sg/2013/04/before-sunrise.html

http://irinatyt.blogspot.sg/2013/04/before-sunset.html