Friday, May 30, 2014

BOOB-TALK


The title intrigues you, isn't it? Because, sex always sells.

Yes, out of nowhere today, I have decided to talk about breasts. It's not an advert but just a little rant that's been on my mind. I usually discuss about the common emotional insecurities we often have but never the physical. Despite being heavily-influenced by media, I want to allow myself to see the beauty in every human being. I wish my brain will not be so quick to detect and specifically pick out the features deemed beautiful for me because of the media it's been fed with, instead let my eyes discover the beauty itself. I am not a fan of how we've been wired to selectively pick what's beautiful and what's not since young, by the things we see on television, magazine, billboards and the people around us. In short, we've "brainwashed". 

Just like any other normal girls, there are days when I'd compare my body to someone else's. There are just days when I don't feel too good about myself either. No one, I'm 100% sure, no one feels completely sure about themselves anyway and that's the truth about life. If it makes you feel any better, you're not the only one worrying about your insecurities. I too, worry about them. And that's okay. Facing each's own set of insecurities is just like having the need to cry. You have to let it all out. You need to acknowledge what you think is ugly and embrace them. If you can't make peace with your own flaws, you'll never feel comfortable about yourself.


I like lean and slender body with small classy breasts like the ones I own but media and people often make me feel otherwise. Sometimes I wish I'm not born Asian just so I can embrace my body better than I can as an Asian. In my very humble opinion, just like how Marilyn Monroe is regarded as the sex symbol because she's fuller and curvaceous, Kate Moss or any other woman of the same size should also carry the symbol of free-spirit and liberation. I like lean and slender bodies with small classy breasts because I've been told beautiful things don't seek for attention -quoted from Secret Life of Walter Mitty.


Then again, studies have shown how humans tend to find their own or people whom they love facial/body features more appealing than others. One of the plausible explanations for is that our brains naturally register the constant exposure we have to these features hence we find them aesthetically comforting to look at. Like how certain food reminds us of home and that is how it is for features too. Aaaaand possibly because of that, I tend to view women of my category much more appealing than others because I wish for my beauty to be recognised too.

I wanna feel okay being Kate Moss because people tend to prefer Angelina Jolie anyway. I love both of them to death but I hate how they both stand for two very different definition of beauty. I love my body but having to deal with the thought of convincing/hoping someone would love me or my body as much as I do is hard. The society has made most men obey this particular set of women perfection ideals since young. Sometimes straying from those ideals or being a little different, could easily make women be seen less.

So if you're wondering what's one of my insecurities among the many other, it would be -wanting to feel okay being Kate Moss but at the same time, I wish I am born Angelina Jolie to feel like more of a woman in this society. I'm just torn between these two beauty ideologies. And because there's no right or wrong to this, it's a real eternal struggle.


I'm not sure if I've made sense but life is just a fucking beauty contest.
Nonetheless, love yourself because you don't need anyone else.




P/S Unknowingly I just altered your definition of beauty a little by feeding you with mine sorry


17 comments :

  1. this is a great write up! i'm getting a little surprised how your entries always speak my mind out loud, like so far ALL of them. thank u for explaining it so smoothly always, it hits the right notes and is quick to understand. you use all the words perfectly. looking forward to more,Irina

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    1. Hi Cheryl! This is so overdue, but I FI-NAL-LY have the time to reply comments. Thank you so much for always taking the effort to let me know how my thoughts actually seem normal and relevant. I tend to second guess myself a lot even after hitting the Publish button. People like you make me feel brave, to say what's buried beneath in everyone.

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  2. I was about to talk to you about boobs because i feel exactly the same but you took down your askfm so i didn't know how to contact you. I'm a 32A and sometimes even the cup is loose for me. Sometimes i try to feel positive about it because it's easier to wear clothing and small boobs tend to sag lesser. But i often wish that i'm blessed with bigger boobs too and it's a real struggle because i don't even have the confidence to wear a bikini out :'(

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    1. darling, pardon me as i'm no irina but i'm replying as your post speaks on my behalf. i'm a fellow 32a and i get you when you say the cup is sometimes loose for you for i'm no stranger to this situation. even my sister has a rack that would attract all the attention when we're out together. nevertheless from stranger to stranger, we have to build our confidence up and work that bikini. don't be too sad about not being able to look as good in a bikini as others, it's all about the confidence! :))))

      p/s irina, i could relate to your posts on so many occasions and i really like you as a person. hope you're coping and having fun with school. i'm super excited for school in july!!!

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    2. Hi there! I'm sorry that this is so overdue, but I finally have the time to reply you :-)

      1. You can always email me! I may not reply as quick as before because I'm really busy now but.... I'll definitely reply you I promise.

      2. Sweets, don't. Don't let anyone tell you what you can wear or cannot wear. If you feel like wearing a bikini out, so bet it. Sometimes I feel shit about my body too but yknow what, we are not meant to be perfect anyway. I rather you wear it with confidence now than to regret not wearing it when you're 35.

      3. It's rumoured that they'll get bigger after pregnancy so let's see about that haha

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    3. HI Jackie! Thank you so much for providing your input. I love it when you guys help each other. I love it when it's interactive. Will you be in SIM in July too? See you if I see you around! :-)

      P.S I look nothing like my photos in school, I'm basically a walking zombie

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    4. Hate to burst your bubble but they get smaller after pregnancy!! They get bigger during, and while you are breastfeeding, but they definitely shrink after. *cry*

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  3. Can anyone explain to me the differing definition of beauties of Jolie/Moss to me? Guy here, don't quite get it.

    Irina: someone who loves you for you, your body, your insecurities and all does not need any further convincing or hoping on your part. They just do.

    From the guy's camp I should also tell you, as well as your numerous female readers, that not every guy cares about boobs, really. I don't.
    Not every guy finds a skanky girl with cookie-cutter-standard long dyed hair and beautiful face with big eyes appealing.

    So take heart in that (life really isn't just a beauty contest), and thanks for yet another thought provoking post.

    fate will find a way
    b

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    1. Hi B!

      Jolie is (was).... naturally fuller and sexier in a rather typical way? Moss is just moss. Moss creates her own definition of sexy by embracing her body being the type that it is. Thank you so much for your lovely words. I am aware of those sweet guys who wouldn't mind but I guess we're so greedy and conscious these days, we unknowingly wish to please the world.

      Have a good TGIF ahead!

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  4. people always want what they can't have. girls with small boobs want big boobs. those with big ones wish their boobs were smaller. i have considerably big boobs but some days i wish they weren't as prominent so i could wear more scantily as the weather demands, without attracting so much attention, you get what i mean? I guess no one's really happy with what they have, yeah? Life is not just a beauty contest. Life is a constant battle in which we fight for what we don't have. Because guess what, no one has everything.

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    1. Of course I know what you mean. Life is never fair and ironically, that's what makes it fair.

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  5. I really enjoyed reading this post + your comments dear Irina. You've definitely earned yourself a new reader. I love the way you think and pen down your thoughts, it's amazing! All the best for school :) x

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    1. HI DEAR! Like all the replies above, I'll first apologise for my late reply haha. Thank you so much for stopping by and showing interest in my thoughts. Look forward to hearing from ya soon whenever :-)

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  6. hey irina i'm a reader/follower/fan girl/fan of your movie recommendations,
    I just watched this movie nymphomaniac which actually besides the sexual scenes, it actually has some story hahaha. I was watching it and thought that you might like it as well. do check it out! or have you already seen it? hahahha

    love you! stay awesome (i dont usually use this word but you really are awesome <3)

    fangirl/please recommend more movies

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    1. HI YOU! So sorry for my late reply, I have been real busy with school and work. Nymphomaniac? Sounds so sci-fi! Interesting~ I'll go check it out when I can. I've so many movies but I don't have time to get to them these days. It's a real struggle to be apart from my movies haha.

      Thank you for being so brilliant, taking the effort to craft this comment which indefinitely puts a smile on my face :') have a lovely week ahead!!!!

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  7. Hi Irina, I chanced upon this girl's blogpost a long time ago and she was talking about her having small boobs and stuffs like that. Her post is crazy funny and it made me feel better about my flat chest as well. I hope it would make you feel better too http://chharmanchh.blogspot.sg/2013/09/the-size-of-my-assets-do-not-need.html

    Also, I hope you know you're really perfect the way you are. In no way am I lying or just saying this to make you feel better. Imagine you with bigger boobs, you wouldn't be Irinatyt anymore.

    I hope this message finds you well. <3

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  8. I love small and humble breasts, I like round bouncy ones as well. I'm a man, I like all kinds of breasts. Small ones seem to be very good for comfort and freedom to move. Big boobs usually attract more attention but not always attention that you'd want.Small breasts can freely go bra less and can attract more attention that way as well, as nipples are always exciting to look at and in my opinion more important than breast size. Just love yourself and learn to make the most of what you have. You can never please everyone so just focus on pleasing yourself. Everyone likes people who are happy and confident in their own skin.

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